some things that can be learnt but not taught

Vision...






Initiative..





Intuition..






Passion..

ironies in life

where do you draw that thin line, between doing too much and doing just enough to fulfil your responsibilities? How do you know when too much is too much for you to bear? with all that you know, you have the responsibility to step up and do something about it. no lame excuses, no comments, no waiting and holding back...

just me.

i realsie i sound very much more confused in this blog than my prev one.

just spiliin out what i feel..which is good lah. honesty.

i just feel very irresponsible right now. I hate it i have being out of control i hate being out of love i hate being out of sync with people and with myself. i hate this.

i need to set out my priorities, realise what i really want and work towards them.

and not procrastinate and get distracted, which is what ALWAYS happens. eurgh..

Feelings

wanted to make this entry sound cheem but waddaheck lemme just place this out...

trying to make the full use of my time during these hols, and when the term starts gonna go full blast...i just have to stop caring so much about what i think other's think of my intentions coz in the end what they think don't matter at all lah so who cares lah ryte

feeling blurry coz im supposed to write all this out quickly as theres a looong week ahead of me
yupyup

went for my mommy's cousin's wedding just now...yerp, the third generation of the karnawi clan isnt even off and married yet, the youngest is just two years older than me, that's a result of my grandma being the eldest and my mom being the first of all her siblings to get married...so basically, apart from realising I'm the first grandchild, i just realised im the first great gandchild too..hahaha. geez. used to be pressurising but hey, take what you have beb.

anyway i think the wedding was fun :) met up with all my relatives on my maternal grandma's side and a few extras...aint close to my mom's cousins thou, never could know why i can't get close to guys who are justa few years older than me..it's just wierd. anyway my little cutesie cousins are still round and cutesie...sheesh i hope they never ever will grow up ever hahaha...and they keep asking when am i gonna get married, when it's gonna be my tuurn...oh man, i dont even talk abt this sorta thing with anyone! can't imagine myself getting married to someone, but i can imagine the persandingan lah, i want ferrero roche for the kids and broocheas for the gurls and maybe pens for the guys..hahaha..and it has to be in blue and white decor...a lil preppy thou dont u think? Anyway since ive got like 40+ little cousins younger than me (and growing in numbers) i think ive got enuff kendarat to go ard! so fun! the gurls can cook n give away stuff n the guys shall be the logistics people and help set up everything. geez, who needs a wedding planner hahaha :)

okay sheesh i forgot how de-stressing blogging can be :) *yay* byes people up for a ultra hectic week ahead!!

okay enuff crap for now

why I've started blogging again

1. i felt out of touch with the world, in the sense I felt that I didnt have to relate and explain myself too much anymore through my blog, and thus don't have to think so hard. felt a little lacking of something, connection with others...maybe:)

2. the reason why i stopped was coz i felt cynical and depressed all of a sudden. didnt wanna let the evilness spread all ard. Now its gone. so why shudden i start spreading the luurve again? haha

3. i miss getting caught up in the times and just being a self-indulgent and absorbed teenager.

yupyup. so babes..I'm back!!