I should stop letting these stupid quizzes take up 90% of my airtime on my blog
Anyways lots have happened
I lobve my family!
But that's nothing new. But somehow this Ramadhan, I dunnow, i think it's the iftar togetherness that kinda binds us together. Less bickering with my bro, more laughs around, more sharing, more understanding. I love them to bits.

And i miss my friends!

And i guess no matter what people may think of you, you just have to be set on the end goal, be true to yourself and hope everything will be allright...InsyaAllah...I may not be the ideal of what you expect me to be, but there's no point pleasing everyone, when I compromise on what I want out of my life in the end.

Oh, and have I told you abt my latest crush? hehehe. He's 25, has big brown eyes and hair that curls at the collar! He's intense, easy to talk to, romantic and sweet.
*sigh* And he sent me home the other nite..

*what?!*

haha okies updates when i next see you! =)

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

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I'm going nuts
I don't know where to start
Gut-feel can never turn out right
But however much as it is against my instinct
Something tells me it'll all be alright
How now brown cow?

Too much nostalgia turning yet untrue.

I can see cracks
Look closer, the cracks are threatening break apart
And whole wall will just come crashing down
From a mere tremble,
Leading to an overflow
Of emotions
Dammit

Nothing seems so real anymore
My life was a mere construct of my imagination
It still is
Don't you dare tell me what to think

Love is so glamourised
Nobody sees the point of it anymore
Nobody sees the point of anything anymore

jadedism is the new pink
and everyone ends up blue

This test result makes me feel like a saint all ready to spread my holy wings n fly :))

Idealist Portrait of the Healer (INFP)

Healers | Counselors | Champions | Teachers

Healers present a calm and serene face to the world, and can seem shy, even distant around others. (so THAT explains my random take-5mins-dun u DARE-disturb me right now-stoning moments!) But inside they're anything but serene, having a capacity for personal caring rarely found in the other types. Healers care deeply about the inner life of a few special persons, or about a favorite cause in the world at large. (Heal all ye whom have misfallen...) And their great passion is to heal the conflicts that trouble individuals, or that divide groups, and thus to bring wholeness, or health, to themselves, their loved ones, and their community.

Healers have a profound sense of idealism that comes from a strong personal sense of right and wrong. They conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place, full of wondrous possibilities and potential goods.(*ahem*ahem*)In fact, to understand Healers, we must understand that their deep commitment to the positive and the good is almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. Set off from the rest of humanity by their privacy and scarcity (around one percent of the population), Healers can feel even more isolated in the purity of their idealism. (Now THAT explains my loner tendencies!)

Also, Healers might well feel a sense of separation because of their often misunderstood childhood. Healers live a fantasy-filled childhood-they are the prince or princess of fairy tales-an attitude which, sadly, is frowned upon, or even punished, by many parents. With parents who want them to get their head out of the clouds, Healers begin to believe they are bad to be so fanciful, so dreamy, and can come to see themselves as ugly ducklings. In truth, they are quite OK just as they are, only different from most others-swans reared in a family of ducks. (Nah, not my parents lah. More like society.)

At work, Healers are adaptable, welcome new ideas and new information, are patient with complicated situations, but impatient with routine details. (and standard procedures, and hierarchy) Healers are keenly aware of people and their feelings, and relate well with most others. (Most being the keyword here.) Because of their deep-seated reserve, however, they can work quite happily alone. (loneristic tendencies again!) When making decisions, Healers follow their heart not their head, which means they can make errors of fact, but seldom of feeling. (yupyup! I can always explain my emotions but NOT WHY I'm like chatting to some cute guy til 4am when i have sch at 8am the next day! :)) They have a natural interest in scholarly activities (explains all my bogus modules) and demonstrate, like the other Idealists, a remarkable facility with language. (YAY! that's why u keep coming back to my blog to read right?) They have a gift for interpreting stories, as well as for creating them, and thus often write in lyric, poetic fashion. Frequently they hear a call to go forth into the world and help others, a call they seem ready to answer, even if they must sacrifice their own comfort.

Ahhh wow so self-explanatory, feels so good to be understood. Felt like I just had a convo with Adila Mohc. HAHA. BUt yes, I do realise that this mayy just seem overly one-dimensional and I may be overly deluding myself as to whom my true self really could be. haha.

HAPPY FASTING EVERYONE! And hopefully this Ramadhan will make us better Muslims in time to come, InsyaAllah...Remember to cleanse ourselves from all bad traits and deeds and to become wiser, stronger and healthier people in the long run...

And don't forget to scrub in between your toes too! very impt!

okies TATA!

It's tiring when people have expectations of you when you don't realise it.
I admit. I'm one hell of a LOUSY friend. I have been and I may always will be.
Maybe that explains why my long term friendships always tend to taper off. I tend to set my energies in other directions when I don't see the friend in fron tof me anymore. I'm more objective than emotionally-attached to any one person. It's all about experiences with different people, not the person per se. It's one of my weakness, this long-term friendship thingy. The least you can do is to set a good example for me to follow. Forgive what I did to you, and move on. That's all I want for now.

I don't think you should pigeonhole me anymore
I'm not the girl I used to be
Neither am I the girl you want me to be
I'm undefined by all things conscious and real
Wouldn't it be apparent for you to see
That ultimately I'm just being my own kind of me.


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I hate the feeling of falling.