and so my cashiering job ended with a bang. had loads of fun with people that I'd usually not hang out with in my circle of friends. opened up to different perspectives and really, never, never judge someone until you really know that person, which definitely wouldn't be the first or second time you meet. The pakcik whom i thought was a playful flirt sprouting wise religious sermons really taught me that. and I realised he's eyes are nice and gentle too. haaah! surprisingly comforting to know that even in the wierdest places, you can find people to connect with and find common ground to talk about. :)

plus I learnt the darker side of things always have a shining light. that even in the most dark of situations, people still try to look around them and thank them for simple blessings. like the teenaged minah from a broken family who's thankful for her boyfriend who guides and guards her, and feels a lot more previledged than the blind crippled uncle who walks ard aimlessly on some days to spend his time not being alone at home. or the sullen single mother who works only nights and scrapes and saves every penny just to bring up her two boys. she opens up to words of kindness, or when you show interest in her kids. thank you, friends i made during my short stint. you've really taught me a new perspective on life.

and that customers have the "right" to treat you like shit, and they most probably do because they have no other outlet to bully others anyway. it's amazing the amount of time you can actually analyse a person within a simple transaction. it was fun. :)

and talking to filzah and muz was fun. i realise that i don't actually have a real hobby, but i love exploring new wierd situations and perspectives. like getting this cashiering job to feel a different sense of reality. well, that and to earn some cash and i was itching to do something other than stay at home like a cooped up sheltered princess who doesn't know a damn about the real world. who doesn't give a hoot about the persons she sees everyday on the streets, so self-absorbed in her own reality, and feeling sorry for herself. it was nice being a face in the crowd for a change. and i realised i have a certain sense of self-importance about me that i definitely need to change.


and i need like minded frens to continue on this journey, friends who continue to inquire and have a strong desire to learn. not just excel for the sake of excelling, but gaining wisdom, strength and become that much of a better person along the way... :)