Past, Present and Future
Week before and weekend was fruitful but exhausting. Thus I'm taking a break from work today. Envisioning process during the camp was good. I guess writing down what I've always known on paper and sharing it did wonders in some ways. Some things are still a blur, but for those that I can at least depend on, its a step forward.
I wanna work with MOH, have a huge house with a swimming pool, and be rich enough to bring my family overseas at least once every two years. I wanna let my family see the beauty of other cultures and appreciate differences as a part of who we are. I want them to be thankful for life in Singapore.
bit of nostalgia for those days..they're back! hehe. Sha was crazy over nicky back then..and she still is! I liked brian...and then kian...haha old sch days :) Remember the times on the train we'd be singing Westlife songs together like totally self-indulgent kids and embarrassing people with us along the way home..hehehe...
And Norsha was crazy over 911 in sec1! Lee Brennen was so cute. I really liked the casper song.
I know this post won't really mean much to anyone...but well, to me and to some of my friends at least, boybands do rock. haha =)
Monday, June 26, 2006
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Jgn Ambik Baju Kakak!
The previous post wasn't to undermine our Malay/Muslim leaders, it was simply to propose an alternative viewpoint to the mainstream one I've been subjected to so far. At this level, it's just not enough that we simply react passively to any form of information that we come across. The article just serves to articulate an alternative voice from an individual that's unhappy with the community's political leaders. Maybe he's got points of his own and he's got the right to speak his mind.
However, as Muslims, we can't judge someone's intentions by their superficial actions and generalise their actions to superimpose a negative identity upon them. This goes towards both parties involved.
Realistically, all we could possibly do is to do something within our own means, whether it might be as an individual or as a group of friends.
And usually, it's really something that goes beyond what you've thought of, if you ponder along creative lines well enough.
:)
---***---
I've been having wierd dreams of late, the latest one being my sister taking away all my clothes and putting them aside close to a Kedai Mama shop near my Nenek's house. And the Mama was breeding several types of pets that include hamsters, rabbits and guinea pigs that have all escaped from their cages when I came down to retrieve my clothes.
I think that stemmed from my fear of my sister intruding into my personal space now that she's all growing up so fast. Plus a certain loss of the familiar now that so many things have changed around me in the past few months. And maybe something to do with animal rights for freedom too.
__***__
This morning was funny with me and my youngest sister waking up together and both of us dragging ourselves out of bed to watch the Netherlands vs Argentina match. (Which kinda rocked, btw). At the risk of sounding like a real amateur, I think the way they played was gorgeous, the pace was so fast! But somehow the ability to shoot a goal within such stress and pressure got to the players and none of the shots on target goaled. I was rooting for the underdogs, and since Netherlands possessed the ball for most of the first half, I wanted Argentina to win..but the Netherlands defence proved unpenetrable, like they were playing netball or sthg, the way every Argentinian striker was marked so well. Just minus the hands being splayed all over the faces of the Argentinian players like netballers usually do.
The funniest thing was both of us fell asleep during half time and woke up when the match was close to over. And that our soccer crazy brother was fast asleep in his own bed. My sister even called up her friends to make sure they were awake to watch the match. haha.
The World Cup makes girls do wierd things :)
The previous post wasn't to undermine our Malay/Muslim leaders, it was simply to propose an alternative viewpoint to the mainstream one I've been subjected to so far. At this level, it's just not enough that we simply react passively to any form of information that we come across. The article just serves to articulate an alternative voice from an individual that's unhappy with the community's political leaders. Maybe he's got points of his own and he's got the right to speak his mind.
However, as Muslims, we can't judge someone's intentions by their superficial actions and generalise their actions to superimpose a negative identity upon them. This goes towards both parties involved.
Realistically, all we could possibly do is to do something within our own means, whether it might be as an individual or as a group of friends.
And usually, it's really something that goes beyond what you've thought of, if you ponder along creative lines well enough.
:)
---***---
I've been having wierd dreams of late, the latest one being my sister taking away all my clothes and putting them aside close to a Kedai Mama shop near my Nenek's house. And the Mama was breeding several types of pets that include hamsters, rabbits and guinea pigs that have all escaped from their cages when I came down to retrieve my clothes.
I think that stemmed from my fear of my sister intruding into my personal space now that she's all growing up so fast. Plus a certain loss of the familiar now that so many things have changed around me in the past few months. And maybe something to do with animal rights for freedom too.
__***__
This morning was funny with me and my youngest sister waking up together and both of us dragging ourselves out of bed to watch the Netherlands vs Argentina match. (Which kinda rocked, btw). At the risk of sounding like a real amateur, I think the way they played was gorgeous, the pace was so fast! But somehow the ability to shoot a goal within such stress and pressure got to the players and none of the shots on target goaled. I was rooting for the underdogs, and since Netherlands possessed the ball for most of the first half, I wanted Argentina to win..but the Netherlands defence proved unpenetrable, like they were playing netball or sthg, the way every Argentinian striker was marked so well. Just minus the hands being splayed all over the faces of the Argentinian players like netballers usually do.
The funniest thing was both of us fell asleep during half time and woke up when the match was close to over. And that our soccer crazy brother was fast asleep in his own bed. My sister even called up her friends to make sure they were awake to watch the match. haha.
The World Cup makes girls do wierd things :)
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
http://www.sfdonline.org/Link%20Pages/Link%20Folders/03Pf/Malay_leadership.html
Now I'm confused as to what our leaders really do.
Now I'm confused as to what our leaders really do.
Friday, June 16, 2006
A Worthwhile Read
Today I'd like to share with you something that's been mesmerising me for weeks...
The truth is, lately it seems like reading the Quran has been a ritual and I don't even understand what I'm reading in the first place cause I only know uberbasic arabic, so the habit becomes really bland..and admittedly, my drive to read it consistently just wanes into like sparse moments, between the last (late) prayer and the next Azan, just to kill time..
But this guy makes translations into english such an easy read and even enjoyable. Take for example the simple Alif, Lam, Mim at the start of surah Al-Baqarah..and a few other surahs following it, he explains it in an Appendix at the end of Al-Baqarah:
"Certain surahs have an initial prefix to them, which are called the "Abbreviated Letters". A number of conjectures have been made as to their meaning. Opinions are divided as to the exact meaning of each particular letter or combination of letters, and it is agreed that only Allah knows its exact meaning.
Their presence is not inconsistent with the character of the Quran as a "plain book". The book of nature is also a plain book, but how few can fully understand it? Everyone can get out of the Quran plain guidance for his life according to his capacity for spiritual understanding. As his capacity grows, so will his understanding grow. The whole book is a record for all time. It must necessarily contain truths that only gradually unfold themselves to humanity. "
He then goes on to describe the phonetics of the arabic alphabet and the different combinations and its meanings.
Anyway the copy that I have looks like this:
The Holy Quran, Text, Translation and Commentary; the latter two configured by 'Abdullah Yusuf 'Ali.
Every surah has an introduction to its general meaning and to emphasize the situational context in which it was sent, so people won't misunderstand some laws in a totally radical and abstract context...
And so today my parents were inspired to take the family out for an outing. Since my older younger brother is running somewhere in the jungles of jurong west and my older younger sister has some kind of magnetic pull that attaches her to the bed and renders her unmovable until 2pm at least, that left 3 kids and 2 enthusiastic adults. Guess where we went!
And so it was a suuper relaxed day getting lost in the jungles of macRitchie and together reading aloud every single board that met us along the way. We saw turtles, tiny fishes swimming against a mini current, and several apparent ancestors of ours.
And at the end of the walk, we realised we weren't even close to reaching the tree top trail! Which means another family outing! yay!
And now I am inspired to set the AMAZON Rainforests as my ideal holiday destionation:)
Today I'd like to share with you something that's been mesmerising me for weeks...
The truth is, lately it seems like reading the Quran has been a ritual and I don't even understand what I'm reading in the first place cause I only know uberbasic arabic, so the habit becomes really bland..and admittedly, my drive to read it consistently just wanes into like sparse moments, between the last (late) prayer and the next Azan, just to kill time..
But this guy makes translations into english such an easy read and even enjoyable. Take for example the simple Alif, Lam, Mim at the start of surah Al-Baqarah..and a few other surahs following it, he explains it in an Appendix at the end of Al-Baqarah:
"Certain surahs have an initial prefix to them, which are called the "Abbreviated Letters". A number of conjectures have been made as to their meaning. Opinions are divided as to the exact meaning of each particular letter or combination of letters, and it is agreed that only Allah knows its exact meaning.
Their presence is not inconsistent with the character of the Quran as a "plain book". The book of nature is also a plain book, but how few can fully understand it? Everyone can get out of the Quran plain guidance for his life according to his capacity for spiritual understanding. As his capacity grows, so will his understanding grow. The whole book is a record for all time. It must necessarily contain truths that only gradually unfold themselves to humanity. "
He then goes on to describe the phonetics of the arabic alphabet and the different combinations and its meanings.
Anyway the copy that I have looks like this:
The Holy Quran, Text, Translation and Commentary; the latter two configured by 'Abdullah Yusuf 'Ali.
Every surah has an introduction to its general meaning and to emphasize the situational context in which it was sent, so people won't misunderstand some laws in a totally radical and abstract context...
And so today my parents were inspired to take the family out for an outing. Since my older younger brother is running somewhere in the jungles of jurong west and my older younger sister has some kind of magnetic pull that attaches her to the bed and renders her unmovable until 2pm at least, that left 3 kids and 2 enthusiastic adults. Guess where we went!
And so it was a suuper relaxed day getting lost in the jungles of macRitchie and together reading aloud every single board that met us along the way. We saw turtles, tiny fishes swimming against a mini current, and several apparent ancestors of ours.
And at the end of the walk, we realised we weren't even close to reaching the tree top trail! Which means another family outing! yay!
And now I am inspired to set the AMAZON Rainforests as my ideal holiday destionation:)
Monday, June 12, 2006
a big thank you to all the little girls who brought a dash of meaning to my life..
Whee~* Just came back from a tweens camp, and aside organisational gitches and what nots, it was a camp worth remembering. There were good moments and those that really touched the heart. I guess what would be most relevant to those reading this would be teaching..I think I'm rather good at it cause of my big family and someone's always in need of an adhoc tuition teacher, my cousins and such, and so I kinda have experience and the mindset and I absolutely ADORE primary school kids-they're so malleable such that you can be sure you'll be able to leave an imprint in their lives-but I just feel that it's just not fulfilling enough to achieve my bigger dreams..
It's amazing that when you aim to give, you actually learn and receive so much back in return.
And for the last time, I have come to realise that we're moving so fast in different directions that we've just crossed the point of no return. But come what may, a true friendship will be able to withstand time and tribulations.
Sentiments at the mo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3jUu8kd1a8 - High by Lighthouse family
It's amazing that when you aim to give, you actually learn and receive so much back in return.
And for the last time, I have come to realise that we're moving so fast in different directions that we've just crossed the point of no return. But come what may, a true friendship will be able to withstand time and tribulations.
Sentiments at the mo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3jUu8kd1a8 - High by Lighthouse family
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Baby pics!!
Went to school today to return books and read up some...
And might as well scan in some baby pics..hehe pardon the sense of narcissim for a while ;)
Bliss with love...but now the tables have turned...
:)
And i just wonder how many more girls have to be hurt before you decide to settle down my dear friend...
I wish I'd never have to see your face again.
Apparently the inert folds i didn't realise I kept my heart in melted into an abyss I never knew existed.
Please stay away.
And might as well scan in some baby pics..hehe pardon the sense of narcissim for a while ;)
Bliss with love...but now the tables have turned...
:)
And i just wonder how many more girls have to be hurt before you decide to settle down my dear friend...
I wish I'd never have to see your face again.
Apparently the inert folds i didn't realise I kept my heart in melted into an abyss I never knew existed.
Please stay away.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
If it makes you happy...
I hate to be a prick at the moment, but some things have really been bugging me and I just have to let it rant here.
When you ridicule someone's looks on your blog, it's just plain hurting.
When you ridicule someone's integrity and background, it's just plain L.O.W.
Why am I making such a big fuss over this? Simple.
Everyone has their own circle of influence. No matter how small, or wide, depending on your personal charm basically. And whatever you do has an influence on someone else. You're pretty simply because those around you are plainer than you by societal norms. You're large simply because people around you are smaller in size. My point is, whatever you do or say has an impact on at least one person, whether you intend to or not. We don't live in a vaccuum, dammit.
I just can't believe how irresponsible and insensitive people can be in their comments just to simply prove their point. If one person has been irresponsible enough to do something bad to you, you should react merely to prevent yourself from getting affected anymore. You don't do anything to aggrevate the situation just simply to prove you're superior morally or intellectually or whatever else that defines you as a person. Nobody truly confident would ever resort to throwing insults at someone else.
-***-
I guess I somehow figured there are more important things to life than what I'm mulling about right now. The question I asked about a year ago has been answered. I don't have to chase the high road just to be happy. I'm not a competitive person by nature. I'm contented when I'm connected to people.
-***-
All there is to life has already been written for you. There'll be life after death, and all of us would enter either Jannah or Hellfire. The only thing that would bring you closer to Jannah if your destiny is otherwise, would be good deeds.
This sums up basically what I'm feeling right now:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbBQAIgAEGU
When you ridicule someone's looks on your blog, it's just plain hurting.
When you ridicule someone's integrity and background, it's just plain L.O.W.
Why am I making such a big fuss over this? Simple.
Everyone has their own circle of influence. No matter how small, or wide, depending on your personal charm basically. And whatever you do has an influence on someone else. You're pretty simply because those around you are plainer than you by societal norms. You're large simply because people around you are smaller in size. My point is, whatever you do or say has an impact on at least one person, whether you intend to or not. We don't live in a vaccuum, dammit.
I just can't believe how irresponsible and insensitive people can be in their comments just to simply prove their point. If one person has been irresponsible enough to do something bad to you, you should react merely to prevent yourself from getting affected anymore. You don't do anything to aggrevate the situation just simply to prove you're superior morally or intellectually or whatever else that defines you as a person. Nobody truly confident would ever resort to throwing insults at someone else.
-***-
I guess I somehow figured there are more important things to life than what I'm mulling about right now. The question I asked about a year ago has been answered. I don't have to chase the high road just to be happy. I'm not a competitive person by nature. I'm contented when I'm connected to people.
-***-
All there is to life has already been written for you. There'll be life after death, and all of us would enter either Jannah or Hellfire. The only thing that would bring you closer to Jannah if your destiny is otherwise, would be good deeds.
This sums up basically what I'm feeling right now:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbBQAIgAEGU
Thursday, June 01, 2006
values all at the end of it
aks i think i fall in and out of love too easily. Hrm, big word. too big.
Anyway darlings, have to update! ok first up, yesterday's shopping trip..which was a good blast! i need a new concept for this year. last year was dresses..wore at least one per week all thanks to my lovely mom who bought me four dresses on mah birthday! and i got one fabulous one thanks to four deasome ppl who bought me one! yay! love it love it..so anyway, i still have not figured out a new concept yet. it's got to be feminine, and fresh. hrmpf.
next:
spot ten differences in this picture ;)
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thank you for participating. now you've moved on to the miserable camp who concedes that Aisyah and Tuty do NOT look alike.
hehe i really don't know what to expect next from my friendship with this babe. Only God knows how many times we've squabbled and stepped on each other's toes and made up everytime we have to work together, or simply discussing about what we'd want out of MS and its members. All the virtual screaming and passionate debates saved in email form...haha I'm gonna cry when I re-read those next sem.
You know how MUIS somehow reminds me of The Ministry of Magic. yes yes, the Harry Potter one. It's not about what they do of course, it's more of the culture, and the ambience of the place. Went down there on MOnday with Kak Aishah and Ridhwan to settle admin details for the internship programme with MUIS. Anyway, lets state the ways (shall I compare thee to a Summer's Day style..hehehe)...
1. The headquarters. You know how in Harry Potter, it's always stuck in between muggle buildings and there's like some secret pathway to get there? Well, the MUIS headquarters reminds me of something like that. It's not exactly secretive, but its beside an expressway, and it's kind easy to get lost on the way there.
2. The structure of the organisation. The Ministry of Magic had like Ministry of Muggle affairs which deals with external public affairs dealing with non-Muslims, and also MUIS has an asset managements cluster which reminds me of the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures..I mean, the assets they're talking about are different...but still...
It's definitely similarities in minority organisations...only MOM has more control and say about what's actually legalised in the wizarding community, while MUIS mostly enforces guidelines, but doesn't have the power to enforce them on MUslims in SinGapore...
3. The spirit of the people, there's just a one united feeling..like they're bonded in some way. Internally driven and even if they look haggard from all the work they do, there's a certain sense of positive vibrancy. The place kinda buzzes with a quiet electricity.
All in all, I think MUIS is getting really cool to reach out to the community nowadays..haha
And X Men 3 rocks my yellow toe socks! I loved the whole sacrifice for a bigger cause all the characters had to make in the end, and the speech someone gave somewhere in the middle made me tear badly. I think it was the best movie I've seen since Land BEfore Time. You know the one where the baby dinosaurs found their way to their parents back at the end.
Been crying internally cause of my results. I keep rattling back and forth back and forth. I see the big picture, but I'm unsure of the steps on how to get there for now. What do I do these next few years would be decided upon these next few weeks. Crossroads, but well, ain't every moment one too if you let it be?
Anyway darlings, have to update! ok first up, yesterday's shopping trip..which was a good blast! i need a new concept for this year. last year was dresses..wore at least one per week all thanks to my lovely mom who bought me four dresses on mah birthday! and i got one fabulous one thanks to four deasome ppl who bought me one! yay! love it love it..so anyway, i still have not figured out a new concept yet. it's got to be feminine, and fresh. hrmpf.
next:
spot ten differences in this picture ;)
.
.
.
.
.
thank you for participating. now you've moved on to the miserable camp who concedes that Aisyah and Tuty do NOT look alike.
hehe i really don't know what to expect next from my friendship with this babe. Only God knows how many times we've squabbled and stepped on each other's toes and made up everytime we have to work together, or simply discussing about what we'd want out of MS and its members. All the virtual screaming and passionate debates saved in email form...haha I'm gonna cry when I re-read those next sem.
You know how MUIS somehow reminds me of The Ministry of Magic. yes yes, the Harry Potter one. It's not about what they do of course, it's more of the culture, and the ambience of the place. Went down there on MOnday with Kak Aishah and Ridhwan to settle admin details for the internship programme with MUIS. Anyway, lets state the ways (shall I compare thee to a Summer's Day style..hehehe)...
1. The headquarters. You know how in Harry Potter, it's always stuck in between muggle buildings and there's like some secret pathway to get there? Well, the MUIS headquarters reminds me of something like that. It's not exactly secretive, but its beside an expressway, and it's kind easy to get lost on the way there.
2. The structure of the organisation. The Ministry of Magic had like Ministry of Muggle affairs which deals with external public affairs dealing with non-Muslims, and also MUIS has an asset managements cluster which reminds me of the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures..I mean, the assets they're talking about are different...but still...
It's definitely similarities in minority organisations...only MOM has more control and say about what's actually legalised in the wizarding community, while MUIS mostly enforces guidelines, but doesn't have the power to enforce them on MUslims in SinGapore...
3. The spirit of the people, there's just a one united feeling..like they're bonded in some way. Internally driven and even if they look haggard from all the work they do, there's a certain sense of positive vibrancy. The place kinda buzzes with a quiet electricity.
All in all, I think MUIS is getting really cool to reach out to the community nowadays..haha
And X Men 3 rocks my yellow toe socks! I loved the whole sacrifice for a bigger cause all the characters had to make in the end, and the speech someone gave somewhere in the middle made me tear badly. I think it was the best movie I've seen since Land BEfore Time. You know the one where the baby dinosaurs found their way to their parents back at the end.
Been crying internally cause of my results. I keep rattling back and forth back and forth. I see the big picture, but I'm unsure of the steps on how to get there for now. What do I do these next few years would be decided upon these next few weeks. Crossroads, but well, ain't every moment one too if you let it be?
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